But one cold snowy January morning, when feeling I could not go on much longer in this depressed state and consumed with grief, I was driving out of my neighborhood, and lo and behold, there was not one mourning dove, but a flock of them on side of road. I could not believe my eye...
I am 5'8.5" and I was 250lbs when I started my weight loss journey and today I'm 152lbs, looking healthy & better than ever!Every time I work out I always remember your voice from the ski steps video, "burn all that ugly fat of yo body", Adrian, you're an amazing guy!
It has been a wild few days. It all started on Tuesday when he woke up from his nap. He seemed a little off and more cuddly than normal. I had to leave for an appointment so my mom was babysitting. I told her he might be getting sick and so she checked his oxygen level when I...
Matt, When I learned the circumstances of your death, I knew I could never stay silent. What I really wanted to do was fly to Florida and punch the owner of your shoddy sober home in the face. I wanted him to hear your name and see the face of your grieving mother and then I wan...
When I say I wake up screaming. It is not a scream, it is always yelling a word or a phrase. One morning last week I had moved to the couch, hoping a change of scenery would make a difference. It didn’t; I just had round two and woke up yelling “Help Me” in the late ...
My friends who have stuck by me are beyond wonderful. Some of the friends I counted on to be there are not. When Amy died, I lost friends but its different losing them because I am sick. Bailing on me after Amy’s sudden passing made me angry and hurt like hell. Losing friends bec...
But I was also upset when I reflected on the many years that I had not taken care of my body. Indeed, I had made a mess of the miracle of me. I had to take action both spiritually and physically, or I would succumb to one of my self-induced ailments. Before I decided to change...
but we are built to focus on living. This has probably been my hardest journey. Watching Doug decline, but shutting that off so I can celebrate what we still have. I cry. I have days when NCL is the loudest voice in the room. I don’t pretend he has forever, but I do always rem...
room. Not a dry eye in the house, only the sound of rapt attention and a grieving child. I thought, “Papa would be so proud of her,” still not used to past-tense you. The thought familiar when living 3,000 miles away from you, like I’d be able to tell you all about it ...
But the most beautiful promise is that there will be a Day when He will wipe away all the tears. He will redeem all the pain. He will undo all the damage death has wrought. Joy will once again be untainted by sorrow. And I heard a great voice out of heaven saying, Behold, the ta...