i will admit up front that yes, idoneed a bit of a crutch when it comes to the petting; treats make it much easier to overcome my fears. but i am slowly, slowly able to do it without them once in a while too. it’s just that the treats are so yummy, i completely forget mysel...
but afterwards my jaw starts fucking hurting because there’s a part of me that’s angry because I can ah, well, motherfucker, you’re talking about being more honest. And then is clearly a case where you chose not to, because it was inconvenient. ...
Resting or recovering isn’t much different from sleep for me. Well, apart from not having nightmares when awake. But I’m usually unable to do anything. Just pretty much non-functional. It feels like attempting anything, no matter how small, triggers off an increase in symptons. Which is...